Can you just imagine how lame this post is going to be by the title? Bear with me as I explain myself...I'm usually not this open about my personal demons.
Have you ever had a moment where you see YOURSELF in the mirror and are shocked at what you see? Not literally seeing yourself in the mirror but you see your shortcomings I guess.
That happened to me today in a week that has already been craptastic to say the least. I have a personal family issue that I am dealing with {my Dad is in the ICU} and I really should just let God handle all my stress but, what do you do, right? We all fall short and we all tend to take on every burden we come across. That's me...I'm just a worry wart sometimes.
I went to MomDot like I always do 1,000 times a day and saw there was Trisha's post in response to Nielsen's Top 50 Power Moms. I saw someone on the list that I didn't think belonged there and then, I noticed that I wasn't listed on Trisha's list...and I literally teared up. Trisha comprised her list of 50 Influential Bloggers based on her own thoughts and feelings and I respect Trisha enough to be OK with her list because A) It's HER list, not mine and B) just because I don't agree with certain people and their business ethics {or lack of} doesn't make them any less of an "influential" person. Right? Right! So, I need to move on...
Here is my "thing" though--all my life I have been good at what I do. No matter what it is, I have always excelled at it. {Here comes the egomaniac!!} Since I was like 10 I can remember playing board games or cards with friends and always winning and everyone hated me because I won all the time. I also am lucky with gambling but I don't really like to gamble but I DO win a lot. I guess I don't like to gamble because I feel like "easy come, easy go" and I'd rather earn money than win it, kwim? So, anyway--yeah, I am a pretty lucky gal and I also happen to do well at anything I try. There I said it and that is the truth.
When it comes to blogging here are the facts: I have only been blogging for 1 year. In that year I have gained a steady following and have made a lot of connections. I am part of Glam Media as a Publisher {I'm reallllllyyyy lucky to have got this spot because I do not have the stats they were looking for}, I am a GLAMBASSADOR--for Glamour Magazine--hello!! Glamour.freakin.magazine-WOW, I am a Walmart Beyond 11 Mom {1 of 200!} a Purex Insider {again 1 of 200} and I have received some pretty awesome products to review. I am part of programs that are limited to only 100 or 200 women ACROSS THE COUNTRY! Am I influential?? Umm, hell yes I am! Am I one of thee TOP 200 most influential mom bloggers? Probably not--yet!
Being confident is one thing but being overly egocentric is terrible. I caught myself slippin' and I am ashamed of myself. Bleh, I didn't make a "list" and so it shall be...what I really should be striving for is not a "Most Influential Blogger" list, I should strive for a "Most Influential Mother" list or a "Most Influential Business Woman" list. I can't be great at everything I do, I can only do ME and to do me is enough! Rewards and recognition all will come with due time and with that, I'm out of here to spend time earning those "Best Mommy" awards my kids like to make for me :)
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Look at all the things that do positively reinforce that you are influential and rock! A list is a list, is a list...
YOUR own list of accomplishments is the one that matters and speaks the loudest!! Keep it up!
You ROCK Lady! That is pretty impressive that you have only been blogging for a year, and yet have accomplished so much.
Personally, I can understand you having a "moment" after reading that list. I am my own worst critic, and have had a mini-meltdown this week because my blog following has not increased. I am off to implement a series of changes to beef up my blog, but in the meantime I still sit here with my arms folded and lips pouting.
having humbling experiences are what keep us in check. they are all relative but, if they work,then it's a lesson learned. It's good that you recognize the positives.
The only award that matters is being the best YOU you can be- and I for one think you are a fabulous human being- not to mention mentor, blogger, mom and poshpreneur. Saying prayers for your dad.
Seriously you are so on track with your ending! It's all about the balance and if we were single ladies without kids then we could be chained to our computers. I've had to step back myself because I have so many kids and they need so many things. I have to put it all in perspective. I want to have readers, customers, success and to grow my business and more! But have to know when the timing is right. My kids need me and that's where I am. If I get a chance to market late at night, blog, fill an order, come up with a new design or whatever it is...that's what has been handed to me. lol
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