
We've all been blessed on different levels. When I was 14 years old I was in church listening to a sermon about talents. The Pastor said "someone here tonight has been praying for the gift of singing" That person was me--yes, me. I saw popular Christian singers like Crystal Lewis sing and she lit up. She was gorgeous, talented and just something about her makes you smile. I wanted that. I wanted to have that affect on people. I thought that if I could sing, I could do anything.
I wanted to have the gift to sing because I wanted to be confident. Well, just because someone can sing doesn't mean that they would automatically have the confidence to do it. I learned that through my good friend Vanessa who could sing--she could sang! She still is a very talented singer but, Vanessa has never performed in front of a crowd by herself. Well, she sang in front of our church once and she said she was so nervous and it was awful. So, like I said--you can have the gift but, it doesn't mean you will use it.
From an young age I new that I wanted to help others. When I was in 3rd grade we had an assignment in class to draw a picture of ourselves as what we wanted to be when we grew up. While my friends were all drawing pictures of themselves as doctors, nurses and teachers, I drew myself as a Mommy. I always knew I wanted to be a Mommy because my Mom was so amazing to me. She helped me learn so much and I wanted to do that for others. My teacher convinced me to draw myself as a teacher...she said that made more sense for the assignment. So, I did go on to be a teacher, eventually, and I did enjoy helping others grow and learn. There was still a sense of emptiness inside of me...like I wasn't fulfilling my talents to the fullest.
It wasn't until I decided to start my own company {officially start} that I realized that my true talents were untapped all these years. God showed me through trials and defeat that I was stronger and smarter than I gave myself credit for. I've come a long way and someday when I get to write my own book, you will know just how hard it was for me at one time to even continue to do business period. For now, I can tell you that if I had to go through all of it again, I would. It has made me who I am and who I am not.
As for the Pastor's call for the girl who wanted the gift of singing...I never went up there. I never said "it's me" I never talked about it to anyone except my one friend Allison. For years I regretted not going up there when the Pastor gave that sermon. I felt that I missed my calling...for so long I felt like I was never going to fill the void of "what was I made to do?" because of that. Little did I know, God had his plans, his purpose and his timing for all of my dreams to come true. My talents go beyond helping others, I'm using the gifts that he has given to me to teach others to search themselves and find their talents. I pray daily for the people that I reach with my blog to be blessed. I hope that you are!